The last couple of days I’ve been exhausted because the bone pain has been intense during the evening hours and into the night. Last night, again, I couldn’t sleep from the pain. I took another Lorazepam and ibuprofen to total two and four, and then I read for a while with my little night light.
Well, of course, I was reading my new Mac Bible, so I wanted to try a few things on the computer and ended up going to play on my Mac. Finally, I got sleepy enough that I thought I could fall asleep. I sure did and didn’t wake until nearly nine. When I got up, I felt like I had a hangover.
My nose is driving me crazy. I don’t know if this is from my platelets being low, but the lining of my nose is just peeling off and bleeding. I’ve never had a nosebleed in my life, and now it’s like it’s just sloughing off. It feels dry and uncomfortable, but when I touch it or blow it, I get blood. I notice I’ve had a few bruises from my Neupogen® injections lately, so maybe it’s all from the low platelets. My temperature has been no higher than 99.8. That’s great.
Today I had the blues for about ten minutes. It’s just a weird phenomenon. I do not feel depressed and feel very excited that I’m getting to the end of the chemo treatment, but suddenly I was nearly sobbing. I can’t even say I had a thought or particular feeling that caused it. It’s just a sudden urge to feel blue. Then, it was over as fast as it started.
Felt like dancing but my legs have just been too shaky.